So I came up with solutions to ease the burdens on my shoulders...
Positive thinking. I am an optimistic child of God. What happened to my optimism? Didn't God give us promises so He will carry all our cares? How can I forget that? The thing is, I am a control freak. If I could control the weather, I would. I need to learn the lesson "Be still and know that I am God" all over again. Focus on the positive things, Rica. So many good things and opportunities have come your way.
Trust Alex. God gave him to me to complement me, not to be just like me. Marrying someone like me is not something that I wanted. That is creepy. I definitely thank God for a wonderful husband. He is patient, brilliant, caring, and knows what he is doing. God called me to be his wife so I should learn to relax, let him be the driver (even when we are falling into a ravine), and encourage him. I married a sinner (just like all of us) so I should not expect him to be perfect.
Save. Seriously, Rica, how can you not save when you are at the peak right now? So I started saving the money I get from my tutoring for the rainy days. Thankfully, the money saved up and I am contented. So saving can be done. It is just a matter of little sacrifices here and there. Honestly, I do not want to stress out with money. I am done with stressing about money. It is time to seriously save and create an emergency fund.
Be grateful. As I said above, so many opportunities have come my way. Instead of being grateful all the time, my bratty self won again in the past weeks. Cinzia is healthy. My new contract with Glendale SDA School came and my pay went up and my co-teachers said, it is going to increase every year. I will be studying at La Sierra University this summer - at my employer's expense. I will be going to Tennessee this summer to attend a teachers' conference. My family's needs are met. I have 10 students whom I tutor one-on-one on a weekly basis. These are some of the things I am thankful for. I am also thankful for my students who are bright and receptive to knowledge. I am also grateful of the times they misbehave or deviant. It gives a chance to think and say my words carefully.
Life is good. How much better it is in heaven!
