Dear Cinzia,
A year ago, I was so sure I would go to law school. It is my childhood dream, and I know I can still do it, despite being married, working, and busy. I was already studying for LSAT, but then...
Just this August, I decided to do my Doctorate. (It could mean goodbye to law school for life, or I'll see you when I am older.) You are the reason I made this decision. With law school, I have to be away from you every night. I could not tutor you nor read to you before you go to bed at night. With your speech delays in the past and needed therapies, I could not afford to make the situation worse. I am your mom, and God gave you to me to take care of, nurture, love, and give my attention to. You are my asset, investment, responsibility, my darling. I would do disservice to you and God, had I decided to go to law school.
With my online doctoral program, I could still be home and start studying and researching at 8pm when you fall asleep. I could still tend to your needs after school hours. I want to spend time with you, anyway. I want to be there for you. You may not express that you need me, but at five, yes, I know in my heart you need me. I want you to grow up intelligent, confident, God-fearing, loving, disciplined, and determined. Only a mom, with the help of God, can show that to you. Papa works long hours, and he cannot be home early for you. I have to step up, and sacrifice my dream for you. It is okay. You are surely important to me, and I do not want to regret later. I want to do my best in parenting. I want to give my best for you. Law school can wait.
I love you, Cinzia. I was born for you.
Love, Mama
Friday, September 23, 2016
What a week!
I am officially overwhelmed. These are the hats I wear:
1. Mother - Although Mama is here, I am still Cinzia's caregiver. I teach, bathe, feed, and read to her after school.
2. Student - I am in a doctoral program. Demanding.
3. Teacher - It has been 5 years, and I am having a tough class this year.
4. Wife - still taking care of my emotional health because I cannot put all the pressure and emotions on my husband.
So help me God.
1. Mother - Although Mama is here, I am still Cinzia's caregiver. I teach, bathe, feed, and read to her after school.
2. Student - I am in a doctoral program. Demanding.
3. Teacher - It has been 5 years, and I am having a tough class this year.
4. Wife - still taking care of my emotional health because I cannot put all the pressure and emotions on my husband.
So help me God.
Thursday, March 03, 2016
2016 goals
Let me remind myself of my goals this year. No wonder I have been unmotivated, unenergetic lately. I needed reminders!
In random order... my personal goals are:
1. Take the LSAT. Score should be 150+ (October)
2. Pay off most of credit card debt. (by August)
3. Finish clear credential program (May)
4. lose 10 pounds (December)
Doable? Yes. Realistic? Yes. I can do this!
In random order... my personal goals are:
1. Take the LSAT. Score should be 150+ (October)
2. Pay off most of credit card debt. (by August)
3. Finish clear credential program (May)
4. lose 10 pounds (December)
Doable? Yes. Realistic? Yes. I can do this!
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