our fellowmen..

yes, you go to church every sabbath, you keep the sabbath holy, you pray and read the Bible everyday...But how do you treat people?

- Bro. Mike Kindom (during our week of prayer)

challenge

i just realized yesterday that i love to challenge myself, that i always want to test my limits, and that how i want to do things alone. i want to put myself in situations that i am not given any choice but to stay and move on. and there are already many instances that prove this "challenge-yourself-rica" attitude.

challenge #1 : studying in UP diliman. i didnt know anybody in quezon city except for a few realtives that arent even close to me. why did i go there? BECAUSE i know i will be alone and ill be put in a situation where i wouldnt have a choice but to stay in UP and finish what i have started.

challenge #2: going to palawan...ALONE!it was my first time to go to that beautiful place just because somebody encouraged me to do so. why did i do it? because i challenged myself, just wanted to prove to myself that i could travel alone.

challeng #3 : going to bacolod...ALONE!yeah...it was my first time to travel from davao to cebu to bacolod, and i took all modes of transpo for that trip - airplane, ferry, bus, tricycle, jeepney, private ride, etc. long trip!why did i do it? just to test myself if i could do it.

challenge # 4: this is still a plan. i proposed to my parents that i will study law in iloilo. that's right. i want to be in iloilo. i want to be alone (with God) and i want a new environment. i want to be put in a situation where i dont ahev a choice but to finish my goal and move on. no turning back.

i will be in iloilo at the end of this semester. i will be. i have to. and this is final. i already talked with God.

I AM NOT MARRIED...YET!

"uy,di mo man lang ako inimbita.congrats ha...nagasawa na daw ka?"

this morning, i received a text from an old friend saying this. i was like, what??????????????????who told you that?im not married..not yet!

how can i be married?i dont even have a boyfriend!*can you sense the bittereness?hehehe..*

"Kay,pwede ka mag-boardinghouse, basta diri lang ka sa davao.."

this is my father's initial reaction when i told him about my plans to leave davao at the end of this semester. i just feel the need of building my future alone and away from my family.i want to prove something to myself.i can take care of myself.i was able to do it for 4 years in UP and i know i can do it again.i have already been looking for law schools outside of davao. i have contacted friends to let me know about boarding houses rates and tuition fees of those schools in iloilo, bohol, cebu, iligan, etc.i have them to help me.i know i can do it.

but then it struck me. if i would come home without food cooked by my mom, and cute voice by my little brother Opong, and continuous caring words from my father, living independently again is actually not worth it. i just realized that i need them especially now that i am still single. i need their guidance, their words of wisdom in giving advice.what if i'd get sick?nobody will take care of me.nobody will give me a whole body massage.nobody will give me a sponge bath.nobody...

i am staying then.ill go to UM law.So help me God.

finally...

the plans in life are slowly getting in place now and i am very thankful.

i want to stop teaching because i want to go back to law school. for the past months, i had been thinking what school will i go to. i am considering no-sabbath-prob schools ONLY. God seems to slowly show me what school is perfect for me and it is Southwestern University in cebu city, and i am going there in october to follow what my heart screams for.

i am finally moving on...thank God.