me bad teacher

i felt so bad after leaving my fil1 class yesterday. i punished one student for not being prepared in delivering his talumpati.

i arrived in the classroom at 11:40.only half of my students were there. i understood. they are bio students and they always come from their college which is one-kilometer away. after checking the attendance, I waited fo the others to arrive. at 11:45, i finally decided to start their speech performance, one of their major requirements in class. i started calling names randomly.

after i heard two speeches, i called out Jeff for his turn. He said, "Ma'am , mamaya na,mamaya na, ma'am. Hindi pa po handa."

"Sinasabi mo yan sa akin, Jeff?" i asked him. He just gave me a shy smile.

But deep inside, I was pissed off. I gave them one week to prepare for their speeches, and here's a brat telling me he's not prepared?gosh...what a student!

i continued calling on other names. most of the time, i caught Jeffrey at the corner of my eye memorizing lines.

after everybody had delivered their speeches, i stood up and started telling them my comments. Jeffrey stopped me by telling,"Ma'am, ako po?"

"Jeffrey, tama na. sobra na."

and i saw the most dreaded expression a student can show me in class. i cannot explain it. it's not offensive in my part. it's an expression of being embarrassed. i hate to see embarrassed faces in front of me, much more if i cause the embarrassment. i hate seeing those because i know they are uncomfortable with the feeling. i hate those becasue im not used to embarrasing students in class.

i feel sorry for jeff. but i would feel "sorrier" for my self if i tolerated his actuation yesterday.

am i a bad teacher?